masokista

adjective. pwede ding noun. katangian ng taong isang tao na ninanamnam ang sakit. kahit nasasaktan, sige pa ren ng sige.

please don't take it too seriously. iba siguro ang context ko ng pagiging masokista ko; or so I'd like to call my self. hahaha.

from the past shopping trips of me and my sister, hataw sa puyat kung hataw. nakow. there was this friday morning na naka VL ako. so morning ng friday, kelangan ko pumunta ng robinsons manila to caim my hsbc card. and because 7AM ang labas ko, i have to wait sa office for few hours bago pumunta ng mall. dahil naka leave ako, i didn't mind staying up late. then my sister texted me, wala din daw syang pasok but she's already in school - to cut it short, nagkita kami sa rob. after makuha ung sinadya ko; naglunch kami ng sister ko. then nagikot kami sa buong mall to scout for different laptops - as in we're seriously looking everywhere - here and there para maghanap ng mga OK. ayun - lakad dito lakad don. ako pa naman ung taong galit sa puyat. di bale na kong magutom paminsan minsan pero pag inaantok ako - patulugin mo ko. uhmm, wa epek ung antok. nagkukulitan lang kami and we continuously walk. sabi ako ng sabi ng pagod na pagod na ko sa kakalakad pero ikot pa ren kami ng ikot. after rob, nag SM san lazaro kami - to continuously roam and look around. parang kahit alam ko nang pagod na ko and ayaw ko ng maggala - sige pa ren ng sige. huwaw. at syempre, dahil masokista nga - aguy, hobby ko na ata. nagpasama naman sya recently sa MOA. abah - 2hours na atang naghahanap ng mabibili - in short naging 4 hours lang ang tulog ko. at kahit ayaw ko ng magikot ng magikot - nakuha ko pang bumili ng blouse sa sale - bwahahaha.

la lang.
happy shopping, shopaholics.

Spice Girls 12-date Farewell Tour

Sporty, Posh, Ginger, Baby and Scary Spice joined together to perform once again on stage for their dear fans.

The 12 shows were spread across 11 countries which started in Victoria's new hometown - LA - last December and came to a close in Buenos Aires.

These pictures were taken from OMG - Yahoo!


The Spice Girls perform to a sold-out crowd at Madison Square Garden. Their farewell tour is being cut short so the girls can focus on their families. Victoria Beckham, Melanie Brown, Emma Bunton, and Geri Halliwell all have young children to care for.

VL's Galore

I was off last week for two day, pumasok ng monday, thursday and friday. Same thing this week. :)
Happy and satisfied.

I've been updating lang my multiply, jobstreet and friendster - hehehe. :)


Holla everyone! :)

Valentines

To all the lovers of the world, happy valentines!
after all, we're all lovers right?

To all my loved ones, happy hearts. To my crazy loving boyfriend - happy hearts honey.

Four Years and Growing?

I was a fresh graduate when I first met TeleTech. Well, actually, we have not yet marched and graduation ceremony is yet to come but I was able to join the company nonetheless. I wasn't into Call Centers before, nor into BPO. All I know is that I wanted a job and I wanted it in a respectable company. I wouldn't really want to apply in TeleTech, but all my friends are applying - remyxx that is and so I joined. Luckily - I passed and got a position.

I joined one of the pioneering account - it was for a Technical Support representative. Wow, who knew I could speak English - haha, I don't - still don't. :)

My technical year was a bit nice - well there were challenges of course but some of the people surrounding me made it easy for me to perform my job everyday. I had a good team and a very support Team Leader. I also joined a newly formed/created LOB way back catering to Networking jobs. After about a year and one month of taking in calls - I got promoted.

I'd like to tell you the story how I bagged the job. As I have mentioned, my TL was really very supportive and he knew all along that I want to get promoted. It was my day off I remember - around the month of June. My TL texted me "gusto mo ba mag-apply as a Trainer?, punta ka dito bukas" - back then, I was afraid. I'm not in a relationship yet and so I felt I had no one to get strength from. I've been even hearing thoughts that if you apply as a Trainer, you need to 'present' your teaching skills in front of a class. With all the hesitations, I applied. It was the last days of the weekday I think - hmm, can't really remember - but there. I was interviewed by the Supervisor. It wasn't as hard but this supervisor is really taking down notes and everything. After major questions and all, he asked me to present the next day. It was a girl who interviewed me after. I was skeptical to get the position. I kept telling my TL that I didn't get it. I rehearsed for the topic I'll be presenting and because it was all about the technical home networking thing, I knew all about it even with eyes closed.

After the presentation, she interviewed me again and made me realized the things a Trainer will be doing. I want to back off right there and then and I wanted to tell her that NO I really didn't want to job (of course after hearing the things she said :p) but nonetheless, I listened to her and made myself prepared for the judgment day. She asked me for a coffee in Starbucks. I said I would gladly join her. She then told me that I got the position and all that - and welcomed me to the department - all I remember was - it was a Saturday and come Monday, I'll be reporting to the Training team.

My first class was a baptism of fire. I had an am-boy student who speaks English more than I "can". He always looks at me as if he's very dismayed of my capabilities. I never had formal training. All I know was that, I was fresh from the floor and asked to train. Good Lord, he made me pull it through. The succeeding classes were lighter but there was an instance where I had to walk out of the room - yes the word is "walk-out". I cried and everyone saw me. I cried out of frustration. I was doing the best I can but these kids can't see it. I cried on top of my lungs while my co-trainers were looking at me. I felt the ups and downs. Oh yeah - I learned!

After all the learning, everytime I'll do a class, I keep on getting something. hehe - from trophy, to cards, to bags, to pillow, to wallets and everything the class would give me - I keep all of them and used them. I love being a Trainer. I just love the experience and the learning.

2007 was the year of the bang.
I caught chicken pox - shit! I was absent for a month - walang sick leave pa - 2 days pa lang ata. But though I wasn't back yet, I was offered to fly to Cebu - all expense paid - to train a new hire. Win Win situation -- I get to fly domestic - first flight ever in my entire life, I get to experience a different life, I get paid, I get to go to Cebu, the company on the other hand will have assistance with the new site they are putting up, they will have resources to be able to pull through the site launch - WIN WIN situation. Next, I get to fly INTERNATIONAL - twice! yeps, another WIN WIN situation!!

Now, its 2008 - I'm tired and exhausted of the things I've done for the company. I just can't think of how I can still grow. I know there is still lot to learn but I don't see it now. I feel like I'm at the end of the rope - Is it time to fly? Is it time to migrate?

Lord, please help. I need it now badly.

Thanks.

Yes, for Real!!

Guess what -

Thanks for the SL Conversion rate, I got a new toy before the valentines! How is wish its a dell inspiron, vostro or XPS or better a MAC! but nope, not yet - I have to save and create a fund for that still. :)

I got myself a new SE P1i. Well, maybe for you its nothing but this baby won me talaga and it took me this SL conversion pa para lang makabili ng phone, sorry naman - isang kahig isang tuka lang. wahahaha.

Weight: 124g
Display Type: TFT Touchscreen, 256K colors
Size: 240x320 pixels, 2.6 inches
: QWERTY keyboard and Handwriting Recognition
Card Slot : Memory Stick Duo
with GPRS, HSCSD, 3G, WLAN, Bluetooth, IR, USB
OS : Symbian OS V9.1, UIQ 3.0
Colors : Silver Black
Camera : 3.15MP, with auto focus, video, flash, secondary video call camera


meet my 8-hour old Sony Ericsson P1i:




haaaaaay, sana makabili din ng laptop. although I doubt it will happen soon - I'm hopeful. :)

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on a little side note:

I have been reading leadership books for a while because I'm having difficulty learning this from the office. Sad but true. So I have to look at other learning options. Sabi nila, experience is the best teacher, what if you don't get to experience that yet - hindi mo pa ba pwedeng matutunan? Sa libro muna ko. I don't want to expound on my office struggles but I think I have to now - I guess it's time. Will blog more about this soon. :)

I'm sleepy and tired - roaming at greenhills, but happy!

Love you hon!

Toys for the Big Girls!

Ay nakow! For the past weeks, I have been browsing the net, educating myself of how it is to shop for a laptop. I heard Rina one time, err - saw when we were chatting - she wants a laptop too. Eversince this PC of ours died last January, I couldn't help myself but think if its really time to buy something portable.

I've made my research and boy oh boy, I've learned a lot... from Core Duo is different from Core 2 Duo, and what FSB is, chipsets, L2 cache(s) size and so many more, as in! - hindi lang basta RAM, HDD and value ng processor ang tinitingnan. Medyo nung naglibot ako sa market - anlaki ng price difference ng Core Duo laptops sa Core 2 Duo na - imagine, magkatunog lang or halos kala mo pareho lang - magkaiba pala. So sa mga buyers, do your own research - wag maging impulsive. It doesn't hurt to resort to helpful websites. Empower your minds - :) Always remember, a laptop is not an investment where you can gain money (maybe one way or another), but its more of an EXPENSE, so if you're shedding money - better be worth it. Here's a very helpful link that can help you with some information. COOLTOYZPH.COM

And wala talagang papalit sa pagkahumaling ko sa DELL laptops - huwaaaaa. Lord, penge pera! :)

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meet my first love among the rest - INSPIRON

This lovely toy comes in different colors. For me, Inspiron is a better and thinner package compared to Latitude. Sophisticated and elegant in its own sense. Made with the end user in mind for Home and Home Office use. It comes in High Definition 15" to 17". You may love the package but fall in love some more by checking its specs from Dell. Fall in love with her too. Inspiron@DELL

meet the stunning and inspiring DELL XPS

this notebook is more than just your gaming notebook. this is fast, quiet and proficient. load up all applications that you can think of and this baby wouldn't even blink to show you that its slowing down. it's a mean machine in a sleek, light and attractive form. it has been produced in batches >> good, red, better and best :p. Don't just take my post for it, visit dell. XPS@DELL

business? meet DELL VOSTRO

Vostro is made for the business-y type. For better performance, longer battery life, stronger wireless, intel centrino duo processor techonology - all because dell is thinking of you. For executives and the like, who likes black in plain and performance.. read on. Vostro@DELL

OMG, don't forget the ever reliable MACBOOK!

this baby will literally make you love her. a lot of people have been wed to their macbooks, don't ask me - google it :p

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I have been really thinking as to what phone I can change my current Motorola to. I have searched and finally landed on Sony Ericsson. I've never been an Ericsson user but I loved their P910i before, long before this gadget was born.

meet SE P1i

this baby won me :) I don't think I would love anything else at this point - not a nokia, not another motorola... but the latest smart phones of SE. The only downside - keyboard. :) Another QWERTY keyboard, we'll see. :)

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haaaaaaaaaaay, so far yan pa lang naman ang pantasya ko sa daigdig ng teknolohiya. huwaw - magkalappy lang ako ng inspiron - shet na malagkit. sana din mabili ko yang phone na yan - pero keri lang kung hindi pa - ehehhe, para bumaba pa presyo. :)

Updates!

Uhmmm, I guess great minds think alike - well, actually katulad ng post ng sister ko sa kanyang blog - changes.. wehehehe

• I have updated my multiply site na po - please visit for more pictures of my and latest happenings of my life. I kinda like the template although I want it more life and color pa than that - I'm pretty happy with it for now. I thank Larees pala - wehehe, hindi nia lam but I viewed her profile in friendster and saw her multiply address. From her multiply, I saw the maker of her template - kaya I looked for something that can cater to my mood - nice site Larees - thanks! :)
• I have updated my friendster page - la lang. just messing around.
• I am completely trying to update this blog of mine - back from the dead - kung gano katagal - i dunno.
• I'm cleaning up na ren my YAHOO inbox

time to do something aside from just bumming around, wahahahaha.

Kong Hei Fat Choi Everyone!

CHINESE NEW YEAR
2008 - THE YEAR OF THE RAT

THE RAT
2008, 1996, 1984, 1972, 1960, 1948

Rats are perfectionists. They communicate extremely well, are quick-witted, level headed and always alert. They choose their friends carefully and dote on children. Rats are great strategists and make good politicians, but most importantly, their intuition enables them to suss out the enemy quite early in the game. Rats are shrewd and know how to amass wealth. They’ll gladly spend on their loved ones while outsiders will find them miserly. Their adaptability and clever manoeuvring will see them thumbing their nose at even the tightest spot. But they can be quick-tempered and overly critical, making them edgy, nervous and a downright nag with things don’t go their way. They have an opportunistic trait that will see them wheeling and dealing in exploiting situations for self-benefit.

Famous people born in the Year Of The Rat:
Antonio Banderas, Antonio Moreno, Ben Affleck, Bobby Avila, Burt Reynolds, Cameron Diaz, Carlos Delgado, Churchill, Colin Firth,Doris Day, Englebert Humperdinck, Fernando Valenzuela, Hector Elizondo, Hugh Grant, Juanes, Jude Law, Julianne Moore, Justina Machado, Kathy Bates, Kenny Loggins, Marlon Brando, Mozart, Pedro Armendáriz, President George Washington, Ron Moody, Samuel J Jackson, Sean Penn, Shakespeare, Timothy Hutton, Truman Capote, Ursula Andress, and Xavier Cugat

The Chinese zodiac signs are determined by the lunar year in which you were born. The Chinese believe the animal ruling one's birth year has a profound influence on personality, and destiny.
The saying is: "This animal hides in your heart."

Monday Downers

Hay, i caught the virus again.

Sick and wasn't able to report for work last night - but I was in last Monday. Hirap pa ring magkasakit, lahat sa katawan ko masakit. Buti na lang ako lang me sakit, hindi sila mama, papa, kuya or si kae. Mas ok na din to. Feeling better now actually-

Hmmmmm, I've been busy researching, reading and browsing - hehehe.

Enjoy life. :)

Back Temporarily..

Ehem,

Just updating my blog from its long lost sleep. DSL was up the whole time but the PC was down since uhmmm - let me check, whoah, I couldn't even remember anymore. It was the time when Kuya had to go to Bacolod - sya namang pagtigil ng CPU to work. Has been really considering buying a laptop soon. Or would this be a good move? I'm still weighing things - hehe, kahit simpleng laptop would make a big difference over finances, its usability and all that. Let's see what will happen. I know Rina bought na ren or maybe is still planning to. Hopefully she gets something from US - at least first rate and lots of choices there.

Hay, a lot of things happened eversince 2008 began and I don't want to start updating now - hehehe, not yet. I'm in constant change lately, hoping for the best of the best for this year. It's about time to realize the dreams and "WORK" and "MOVE" to achieve, at least if not everything - partly.

I'm just around, and still here to whoever drops by here in my blog to check for my updates - thanks! :)

Bountiful 2008

Hello Philippines and Hello World!

Nope, this is not PBB or Pinoy Big Brother - just had a little hang up while watching. :)

Kamusta naman ang mga hindi na naguupdate ng blog di ba? Kamusta naman po ang christmas ng mga beloved bloggers of the world?

My Christmas was fine. This was the year when I get to give a lot - hehe, not in terms of money but the number of people I crossed out of my list. I'm happy because I didn't forget naman anyone who's on the list. Sabi nga nila, it's better to give than to receive. :) Nyek! babaw :) And I'm so happy with all the things I got this year, hmmmmm.. ano ano nga ba

• A book tag from my first week monito monita
• A Rubik's cube, err a 2x2x2 cube from the second week of monito monita
  
• A beautiful big glass from my third week of monito monita
• Anne Rice's Book VI of Vampire Chronicles from the last gift giving of monito monita
• Book of Jodi Picoult's "Perfect Match" given by my Mommy during the Xmas Party
  
• I got an antioxidant soap from Jessa
• Anne Rice's Book V of Vampire Chronicles from John
• I got a Dark Chocolate from Patrick which was given way too early :)
• A pretty dolphin key chain from Ryan
• Beautiful mug with my name on it from Myda
• A cute 3-zipper Lesporstac purse from Dan
• Another black purse from Mhir
• A really H-U-G-E ballpen from Lee
• Havaianas keychain from Misha
• Go-Negosyo book from Kuya as my monito on our family exchange gift
• A Thai 'sampaloc' from Dexter who went to Thailand :)

if in case I forgot someone, I'll surely post it here.. hehe.. gift giving indeed. How generous of my co-trainers even if I wasn't prepared to give gifts - medyo wala naman sila sa list ko - hahaha.

New Year was also a bang! We spent it at home the usual way we do but I had to report at the office by January 1 - work work work...

I couldn't elaborate more. I thank the LORD for my 2007 - even if I got chickenpox this age - I was able to fly domestically and internationally. I thank him for all the opportunities I have experienced this year. I pretty much know that I need to move this 2008 - where and how? I don't know yet. I wish he won't leave me the way he did for this exciting 24 years of my LIFE.

I love you honey.


To GOD be the Glory, now and forever!!

December = Pressure

Whoah, month of December is surely a busy month for almost everyone. Good thing I have bought almost everything for some gift giving on Christmas - saves time and effort when everyone is busy rushing to the mall, falling in line for gift wrapping and everything in between.

Never had a full sleep today but has spent quite nice few hours at the mall scouting for few things to buy. I feel so tired and ironically restless at the same time - for being sleepless and for wanting to go around the mall - i don't know with my self - hehehe, naguguluhan din ako.

Few days more and I'll be crossing out few people on my list. Konting gala na lang and ikot sa mall - I'm done na with my Christmas shopping - whew

I'm excited to see and buy the Belle De Jour Planner - hope I find time to get one - oh, soon!

I don't know if making sense with this blog - but nonetheless, i'll keep posting. :)

Enjoy!

Buhay Baboy

ehehe, medyo tambay lang ngayon sa bahay - walang work eh - I'm on leave till Wednesday kaso I'm part of the Trainers who will be conducting Trainer Cert for the next 4 days that will run from Tuesday to Friday - goodluck sa leave ko po.

Buhay baboy has been my past time - ehem, medyo birthday ng Papa ko and we've been cooking a lot this past few days - wahahaha, puro nguya lang gawa sa bahay - waaaaaaaa. Pero thank you naman Lord kasi may food kami - so di bale nang tumaba - ay sorry naman - mataba na pala. hehehe.
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I know I miss him but this is for the good. I have maybe been confident enough but I know everything will fall into place at the proper time. I surrender everything to him because I trust no one else.

God Speed everyone this Christmas holiday! :)

Papa's Golden Birthday

December 8

Grand 80's Prom Night ang theme ng Christmas Party Today - which apparently, I wasn't able to attend because it's Papa's 50th Birthday - sayang, pero ayos lang. There's nothing much to look forward to - Ninetendo Wii's and PSP lang pinamimigay samen :( I guess, we jsut have to look forward to Bamboo who rocked last night's performance. :)

Noon saturday morning - Kae and I decided to go to the Christmas Bazaar in World Trade Center to do some catch up shopping - hindi pa complete Christmas list ko but my wallet has been drained na - nyahahaha. Omg, there were a lot of stores inside World Trade - actually, para syang mixed of branded and not braned ones - aliw din magikot pero super maraming tao because it was weekend. We saw Angelu de Leon, Jodi Sta. Maria, her kid and her husband, we also saw Glady's Reyes and Sheena Ortaleza - ay di ko lam spelling - sorry naman! Kae was supposed to look for a brand but we didn't find it - hay, I'm the one who ended up shopping. Hehe, mura naman mga binili - and I got our PC a new keyboard - wawa na keyboard namen eh, ehehehe. After World Trade, we went to MOA. Had a little dine and spotted a cake for Papa. We ended up choosing a photo cake for him na may picture nila ni mama and a family photo din - hehe, saya! But since we don't have printed pictures, nagnetopia pa kami and nag paprint - effort naman! :) We scouted and bought few more toys for my pamangkins, I bought my Ninang Marks and Spencer na lotion din for Christmas. Haaaaay, marami pa sa list ko ang wala din - pano ba yan, mauubos na ang kaban - ahahahha! i think I know na what I can give to remyxx - ehehehe - yun eh kung magkikita tayo hmmmm, hehehehe - joke lang mga sis!

Grand Christmas Bazaar in World Trade Center runs from December 6 - 16, 2007
Mondays to Thursdays - 12noon to 10PM
Fridays to Sundays - 10AM to 12MN
Note: Php50.00 entrance fee for both kids and adults

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On the other side of the world..

It's been 2 days, no text, no call, nothing as in. Nakakapanibago - hindi ganito dati. Sumobra nga ba ako ng confidence sa sarili? Pero come to think of it, mabuti na ang ganito. Let me borrow some thoughts - with whatever you're doing, you should know when and how to stop. You should know kung kelan tama na or kung kelan pwede pa. You should know if you need some growing up to do or if you need some time for yourself. Maraming bagay ang hindi mo nakikita or ayaw mong tignan because either you fear when you look at that direction, or you suddenly become deeply troubled kung maiisip mo ung mga bagay bagay na yun, or dahil akala mo normal yun, or dahil akala mo there's no hope and no tomorrow. We all have choices. It's a matter of what you choose that makes up your life.

Ikaw, ano pinili mo?


will blog more about this some other time... :)

Maroon 5: Won't Go Home Without You

Maroon 5 Music Video

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

[Won't Go Home Without You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

2008 Starbucks Planner

Disclaimer muna: I copied lang po the picture from the Flickr site - let me promote his site muna -- i didn't ask permission, pero Thank you naren. hehe

I got my Starbucks planner na for drinking too much coffee. I'm glad to say I'm loving it - the leather is not so hard unlike the one from last year - and that was heavy too. I remember when I was boarding the plane and I had to check my bags in - whew, I had to carry my planner instead of leaving it sa bag ko for weighing because it was really a bit heavy.

Anyway, this new Starbucks 2008 planner comes with an unsharpened pencil that has its two ends flat that you can sharpen - meaning you can sharpen both ends - ay gulo ko! basta un po - walang eraser so pwede mong tasahan magkabila. It has 5 mini cards inside - For mother's day, father's day, valentines day, friendships, and I can't remember the other one. :) The green stripes you're looking at is like a garter that will keep your planner closed. Faux leather tawag nila sa leather na yan, ewan kung ano yun - hehehe.

You may get this Starbucks by visiting any of their stores nationwide. Simply buy any coffee and say you want the promo sticker if you don't have yet and they'll give you one. Every cup you buy - either hot, iced or frapuccino (blended coffee) - you'll get a sticker. You have to complete 24 stickers to avail of the 2008 Planner. 12 stickers are alloted for Special December drinks or what I call holiday drinks. They have featured drinks every time the Christmas Season comes, and again, 12 of your stickers would come from here. This year they are Peppermint Mocha, Toffee Nut Latte and Praline Mocha. The other half - which is 12 more - you can buy any drinks you want... so bili ka ng 12 na featured drinks, and 12 na anything goes na drink or beverage of your choice - and presto - may Planner ka na. But, I've been browsing in ebay and sulit.com - grabe, others are selling it for 1,400 - kung gusto mo naman, bili ka for the price of that - wala nga lang coffee na kasama. Wehehehe.

Pahabol, starting December 3 - December 7, Starbucks has a promo of "double your sticker" if you buy within the allotted time which is 12:30PM - 1:30 PM and 8:30PM to 9:30PM. To those who have stickers - double them now! Lastly, on the purchase of your 24th beverage, a donation will be given on your name to Project SparkHope. I'm planning to complete 2 more promo cards - kakayanin kaya? :)


Happy coffee-ing! :)

gee, Nine West!

Haha, sorry, first time ko weh - I just have to brag my shoes - I just love it. I wore this kanina sa office, and it actually feels so good sa paa - finally - mataas na shoes that I can stand even after hours. I find it nice kasi it has straps to support my tiny feet, it has soft cushion sa talampakan that you can feel the moment you start using it or even as soon as you step on it, I find it sexy because of the heels - nice talaga. Hehe, ako lang siguro nakaka-appreciate. This was taken nung binili ko sya sa Australia. Imagine, for the price of AUD29 which is roughly around 1200 lang may Nine West na ko - e dito this is around 3K - super steal talaga. :)

To Singles - Or To Everyone

Are "should" and "ought" Blocking Your Path to Love?

How to overcome three intentional roadblocks to love

By Kathryn Lord Special to Yahoo! Personals Updated: Nov 25, 2007

Have you heard yourself saying things like "I should be thinking about my Sweetheart 24/7 or I must not be in love" or "I should know if he (or she) is the right one for me"? Or how about "We should have... (fill in the blank: the same sense of humor, a similar background, or compatible taste in furniture)"?

I find that lots of singles have rules that guide their love life. Some rules make good sense (like only dating people who are really single and available, economically stable, and live within the law). But many rules are unrealistic, harsh, or based on romantic myths. Then these singles end up comparing their dates with their guidelines, sensible or not, and making life decisions that have enormous consequences.

I am a romance coach, but I have also been a psychotherapist for over 30 years. I learned long ago to listen carefully to the language my clients use when they talk about themselves and their lives. In particular, I'd watch for the words "should" and "ought."

What's wrong with 'should' and 'ought'

While exceedingly and commonly used, "should" and "ought" could easily be eliminated from our vocabulary. At the very least, we would all feel a lot better. Should and ought are guilt-producing words: "I should spend more time with my mother," "I really ought to lose some weight." The sayer doesn't really intend to do what he is shoulding or oughting. If so, he'd say, "I will spend more time with Mom," or "I'm going to start dieting today."

Shoulding and oughting are like giving yourself a lash on the back: You are punishing yourself with your "I should" or "I ought" statements. Your guilt is eased with your punishment, making it possible to go on with your life, while never following through with what you said you should or ought to do.

In the case of love, shoulds and oughts give us a way out when we need it, just like being picky. Looking for love is loaded with anxiety: "What if it doesn't work?" "What if I find out I don't really love her?" "What if he finds out about (you fill in the blank)?" When your anxiety screams for relief, pulling out a good old should or ought can provide your escape hatch.

Top 'shoulds' and 'oughts': Road blocks to love

Let's look at some common shoulds and oughts more closely, so that we can see the errors in thinking:

1. "I should be thinking about my Sweetheart 24/7 or I must not be in love." Odd as it may sound, some people never feel the intoxicating sensations we think of as "being in love." The ability to fall in love is on a continuum: Some people fall in and out of love very easily, some people never do. Most of us are somewhere in between. Those people who never "fall in love" are still quite capable of loving and forming relationships. If you find yourself waiting for the "in love" sensation which never comes, the "I should be thinking about my Sweetheart 24/7 or I must not be in love" could keep you permanently single.

2. "I should know if he (or she) is the right one for me." Really? How? Of course there are better or worse choices, but assuming that your date meets your criteria of "good person" and the two of you enjoy each other, seem compatible, and don't irritate the heck out of each other, what more do you need? This "should" may be connected to your "falling in love" ability: If you are able to "fall in love," that biochemical process (it's like being drunk or high) helps surge you forward into a permanent relationship and over any questions or doubts.

3. "We should share the same ... (fill in the blank)." Why? One of the wonderful parts about finding a life partner is all the things that he or she knows and you don't, or is and you are not. Think of what you can learn from the differences. Or what you won't have to learn because your partner already knows. Yes, some similarity is good, but why would you want someone just like you? You may be pretty terrific, but how boring would it be to be married to your carbon copy!

So pay attention to your inner thoughts about love and your dates. If "should" or "ought" crop up in your thinking, take note and challenge yourself. You may have set up a condition that is road-blocking your search for love.

P.S. If worrying about a new partner discovering some secret of yours is keeping you from pursuing love, find out how to deal with your worst in my article "Do You Have a Secret? How to Tell Your Sweetheart Your Worst." I'll send it when you subscribe to my free email newsletter at Find-A-Sweetheart.com.

Learn To Let Go

All from Bill Ferguson's - Master of Life (As Featured on Oprah)

Letting go is the key to flowing with life and the key to having life work.

At any moment, your life is exactly the way that it is. You are the way you are and the people in your life are exactly the way that they are. This is true whether you like it or not.

When you fight and resist the way your life is, you create a state of fear, upset and tunnel vision that destroys your effectiveness and almost always makes your situation worse.

To handle a situation, you need action, not resisting.

If you could somehow let go of your resisting, you would restore both your peace of mind and your ability to see clearly. You could then take the action you need to effectively handle this area of your life.

"Letting go" is the inner action that restores your peace of mind and allows you to see what needs to be done. It's the key to restoring your effectiveness.

The moment you let go, everything seems to change. With the fear and upset gone, you see your situation clearly. You become creative and able to discover solutions you could never have seen before.

To begin the process of letting go, let's look at the nature of fear.

Fear is created by avoiding and resisting a future event. For example, let's say that you are married and that you are resisting the possibility of your spouse leaving.

The more you resist this future event, the greater your fear. The greater your fear, the more you feel threatened and the more you hang on. This in turn pushes your spouse further and further away.

By avoiding and resisting this future possible event, you create a state of fear, upset and tunnel vision. You then act in a way that tends to bring you the very event that you are avoiding.

To have a fear lose its power, you need to do the opposite of resisting. You need to be willing for the fear to happen. You don't have to like it, just be willing.

Keep in mind that letting go is strictly a state of mind and is totally separate from your actions. Letting go is what removes the fear, upset and tunnel vision so that you can see what action you need to take.

For example, if you have a fear of losing your spouse, be willing for your spouse to leave. Do this in your heart as a state of mind, but in your actions, do everything you can to make sure it doesn’t happen.

“I love my wife and I don’t want to lose her. I’ll do everything I can to make sure she feels so loved that she would never want to leave, but if she goes, she goes.”

The moment you become willing to lose your spouse, the fear and upset lose power. The tunnel vision disappears and you become able to interact in a way that creates love and greatly increases the chances of the person staying.

Be sure and read the example at the bottom of the page.

To let go of your resistance and to restore your peace of mind, be willing for your life to be however it is and however it may become. You don't have to like it, just be willing.

You do this by granting permission. "I am willing for my spouse to leave." "I give my spouse full permission to be exactly the way he or she is." "I am willing to lose my job."

Let go of your demands and expectations for how your life should be and make peace with the way your life is. Set yourself free inside. Then take whatever action you need to have your life be great.

To make the process of letting go a little easier, there are two things you can do:

The first is trust. Trust that no matter what happens, you will be okay. Now this doesn't mean that life will turn out the way that you want it to. Life often doesn't. Trust is knowing that however life turns out, you will be fine.

When you know that you will be fine, no matter what happens, letting go becomes relatively easy. As you let go, you restore your effectiveness and life works out great. This then reinforces the trust.

When you don't trust, life becomes threatening. You fight, resist, hang on, and withdraw. You then make everything worse, which reinforces "don't trust."

Trust is actually a choice. Trust is something you create. It's a declaration. "I will be okay no matter what happens. I trust, just because I say so."

Trust is also telling the truth. You really will be fine no matter what happens. You have had difficult times before and you have made it through every one of them.

Life is only threatening when you resist. So stop resisting and trust. Trust that no matter what happens, you will be fine.

The second and most important step in the process of letting go is to be willing to feel the hurt. This is important because it's the automatic avoidance of this hurt that forces us to resist.

We think that we're resisting our circumstances but we're not. We are resisting all the feelings and emotion that are being reactivated by our circumstances.

More accurately, we are resisting a very specific hurt from the past. We are resisting the hurt of feeling not good enough, worthless, not worth loving, or some other form of being not okay.

Once you find and heal this hurt, the need to resist or hang on disappears. You can then let go and take the action you need to effectively handle your situation. Finding and healing this hurt is one of the most important things you can ever do.

This hurt is responsible for all your fear and all your upsets. It is responsible for all your self-sabotaging behavior patterns and ultimately, all of your suffering.

To learn how to heal this hurt and to be more able to flow with life, make sure you read the next two sections, Be Willing To Feel Your Hurt and Heal Your Inner Core Issues.

If you would like to heal your hurt and restore your peace of mind quickly, schedule a consulting session with Bill Ferguson or attend Bill's weekend workshop, Return To The Heart.

The Mastery Of Life Audio Course and Bill's book, Get Your Power Back, also show you how to find and heal this hurt.

twenty seven months

how long has it been, hmmm, twenty seven months and counting.

we hardly see each other now because of being really busy at work and all the things that are occupying our schedule for the past months - not to mention - Christmas time. But we still managed to celebrate a bit. we had a stroll in MOA and a delightful dinner in Pier One. That restaurant never fails to satisfy our palates - we had a sumptuous meal over some important chit chats and catching up. After that, we headed to starbucks for dessert and coffee - mwahahaha, yes - I do look so big now - so what! hahaha

How long do we have kaya?? hmmm, i wonder.

cheers to the past years!