hope you enjoy reading! - mae :)


Jul 29, 2007

Picture Update!

Roxas Pride Awards
June 10, 2007
Jaipur, Fort

Here are the pictures that were scanned from our official Site Publication, AUX6.

First picture - official cover of our Aux6

Second picture - Support Team Awardees.

Third picture - my trophy (I took a picture of it at home, kasi medyo pangarap ko ata ito. hehe)

Cricket Magazine
TeleTech's Official Publication

First picture - graduates of SDP held in Lipa. Marvin was part of it that's why I scanned it. :)
Second picture - I scanned it because of Jessa naman, hehe. Nice noh? I really think she's photogenic.

Indulge!.. more on my flickr!

Jul 28, 2007

And the News Finally Came

I honestly did not think that I'll be able to fly out of the country this early considering there has been so many hirings, classes around our account lately. Yes I filed for a passport only because I wanted to; so that if in time there'll be another opportunity - I can grab it na - but never did it cross my mind that they'll be sending trainers again since we have 4 trainers there still undergoing training. From my sups word, it's not gonna be a long training. It'll be as short as one week and then back again to the country to train. Talk about "fast". Natatawa tuloy ako. Maglalaro lang siguro ako sa one week, or paglapag na paglapag ng airplane eh gogora na kami sa lamyerda - you'll never know when you're coming back. :)

So Monday, requirments for VISA will have to be submitted na. I'll post updates as soon as I know them na, okei. :)

Hindi naman ako mashado excited, nakakatuwa lang. :p

Jul 27, 2007

Sari Sari

Today marks the beginning of my battle against me being 63 kilos in weight that is not proportion to my height. I have fought before and lost, fought back and was too weak try it again until trying to fight and breaking the promise becomes a habit. I thought everything was just fine because someone loves me for who I am. I thought I'll never going to realize that 'face value' counts and being physically OK matters. Then of course reality slaps me - it hit me hard. I don't know what else is there for me - but I know God will help me. I don't dare question the days I'm sad or feeling lonely or depressed because I don't dare question him during the days I'm happy. But I suddenly feel alone, desperate and weak - but I won't question him. Fight mayang! I can do this.

On Entertainment

Beyonce stumbles during Orlando show

07/26/2007 10:36 AM, AP

Beyonce Knowles made a dramatic misstep when she fell face-first down a flight of stairs during a concert. Ever the stage professional, she got right up and continued her performance as if nothing had happened.

The 25-year-old singer — flipping her hair dramatically and wearing a long red trench coat and high heels — was performing her song "Ring the Alarm" during a concert Tuesday in Orlando, Fla., when she tripped and stumbled down several stairs.

Knowles quickly regained her footing, reclaimed her microphone and went on with the show.

A spokeswoman for the singer didn't immediately return a phone call from The Associated Press on Thursday.

Amateur videos of the tumble had nearly 900,000 hits on the YouTube.com Web site Thursday morning. Posting of the videos began Wednesday.

My Favorite Celebrity Couples!

... actually minus Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes, I've been a fan of Jada and Will Smith being husband and wife and of course posh couple Victoria and David Beckham. Hindi mo na itatanong, super friendship ang magasawang Katie and Tom with Jada and Will. Si Victoria naman and David is a good friend of Tom and Katie, so I think super friendship silang tatlo. Pero Smith and Beckham couples talaga ko. :)

No Reservations
starring Catherine Zeta-Jones. I want to watch a Love Story Movie again and fall in love...
I think it's not really that nice compared to HP and all, but once in a while it'll be nice to see a refreshing movie.

Jul 26, 2007


To all my friends who are celebrating their birthdays, happy happy birthday to you all. May you be showered with all the blessings in life. :)

Naps - July 22
Dianne - July 23
Mhir - July 26
Frances - July 26
Kuya Orville - July 26
Lee - July 27

Jul 23, 2007

Eligible Na!

harhar, just got my good new passport. Now I can fly na, weeeeeeeee. Question is - when? haha. Ubos na ata lahat ng slots and opportunities to go out of the country.

Sa lahat ng mga sumahod, maligayang salary day!

Are You a Boyfriend?

... then you should know..

  1. When you say "ILOVEYOU", meant it to the highest level
  2. Know what we want - from colors, to brands, to our fashion sense
  3. If you buy us stuff, make sure it's really among the 'what we want' list
  4. For the record, we love jewelry - and buy not according to your taste but according to ours
  5. If you did something stupid, "apologize" till everything is back to normal or else you don't want to know what we can do after
  6. If you're asking us for something, make sure you're worthy of it
  7. If it's gift giving time and we gave you something expensive, one way or another you should give us more expensive than what we gave
  8. Treat us to an expensive meal once in a while
  9. Yes, pay our bills once in a while
  10. We love flowers, not the cheap one's you buy from a pet shop. Bouquets and expensive ones are even better
  11. We love pillows and stuff toys - the really big ones
  12. Let us wear what we want and what we're comfortable at - we should be responsible enough for wearing it
  13. If on a fight, no cursing, no physical stunts
  14. Compliment us even it's the last dumbest thing you could ever do
  15. Don't flirt in front of me in my wholesome self. Try it when we're not sober. But if you do, expect we can do it too - better than you did
  16. If you're talking to your female friends, pull us close so they're aware we're your girl and we're serious
  17. Do not try to compliment other girls while you're with us or just behind our back! - super below the belt
  18. Count the things we've done for you, and I mean - "ALL THE THINGS" before you do something dumb and stupid that you'll regret soon
  19. Please, SEX might be 'pleasurable' but its not all there is

Jul 22, 2007

Malling Galore

Today was a different Sunday afternoon that we spent; Marvin and I went malling. Because Marvin has to buy a red office polo, off we went and looked for BIG M.

First Stop: Shangri La Plaza Mall.
Unfortunately, we were not able to find the store so we scouted at different botiques na lang but couldn't find any size to suit him. Tired from strolling, and since Marvin was craving for a steak, we head on to the House of Minis located at the ground floor. After chit chatting and all, we went strolling again. I spotted Haagen Dazs and thought of buying an ice cream. I originally wanted something in a cup but much to my surprise, half pint in their regular container costs 400 something. :) I felt yes - medyo koripot and so I asked again, I pointed the small cup saying "seriously? that small one is 400?, the lady replied Yes ma'am." Ok, so I opted for another one na medyo cheap. I then bought one scoop na lang in a cone which costs me Php 170.00 -- naman, ice cream pa ren naman to. Nothing special. O wow. One scoop for Php170.00. Kuripot na kung kuripot but my 200 will go a long way sa tabi tabi, hahaha! cge na nga.. experience will definitely cost you. :)

Second Stop: SM Megamall
I was a bit disappointed with Megamall. Yes there were a lot of stores but department store was renovating and all so it wasn't a nice experience at all. There were a lot of people shopping and dining and so the place was so crowdy considering the amount of space they have to close because of the renovation - not so pleasant.

Third Stop: Robinson's Galleria
It was a peaceful experience to be back in Galleria. Hehehe, la lang. super napagod ako kakaikot at kakalakad from Megamall. We saw Connie Reyes and her kids malling. We also saw someone na basket ball player, player ata ng red bull.

Last Stop: Greenhills
We hop on a cab and went to Greenhills to continue our feet exercise, ehehe. Ikot ikot and all, la pa ren kaming nahanap.

La pa ren kaming nahanap, we spent the rest of the hours at home na lang. It was nice to go out once in a while, pero saya sana kung may pera, hahahaha!!

Let me quote Marvin by saying this has been what I have waiting for, us strolling lang spending quality time together. It was a great Sunday before our 23rd monthsary!

Happy and Contented and Sleepy.
weeeeeeeee. :)

Jul 17, 2007

And Eventually...

Since I got the NSO copy of my Birth Certificate, I decided to go ahead and pursue my passport application. And yep, another late bloomer here!

This time, I was not with Marvin; my good ol' Kuya accompanied me to DFA. Ayos lang naman, it wasn't so hard to figure our what you're supposed to do but grabe and mga fixers - so ung mga first timers and soloists na walk-in sa DFA, kawawa naman .

Since I'm bored today, hehe, I'll write the process: magbasa ka na lang, leave the writing to me - tutal blog ko naman to - wahaha. Boring ba? :D

Para sa mga first timers:
    1. Look for the gate of DFA, don't listen to anyone else or entertain anyone. The entrance is on the right side of the street coming from LRT. But from the service road of Roxas Blvd, sa left sya.
    2. After entering a narrow path, you'll see a blue gate sa right. Pasok ka lang, it'll look like a big basketball court sa loob.
    3. Filling up process na. Go ahead and get a Form, look for the information. They'll ask for your Birth Certificate then will give you a form. Fill it up, there are numerous stand-up-tables-only dun.
    4. The form will require you mga 4 pieces ata na picture in 4.5cm x 3.5 cm. If you have a pre-taken picture na with you, make sure 2 pieces are inside a clear plastic pouch then staple it in the form. Kung wala naman, magpapicture ka dun sa mukhang bus na nakaistambay dun sa loob ng Basketball Court. Php150.00 lang sya - mga 5 copies ata un. Less than 15 minutes lang namin ni kuya hinintay. If you're not wearing a collared shirt, or polo, meron din silang mga quick slips na mga half polos. Wear it and smile!
    5. After the picture, again, staple 2 pieces sa form and make sure it's inside a plastic pouch. Tinitinda din ang plastic pouch na yan for Php1.00 jan sa loob. :) Another picture should be pasted sa form - total of 3 pics na. Don't worry, merong part dun sa court na may staplers and paste.
    6. This time, mag thumb mark ka na. Self service po ang mga yan, so make sure you know how to read and watch the right people do it. nyahahaha.
    7. Bago ka pumila sa Verification - may 2 guard muna na magsta-stamp sa form mo. Hindi ko lam kung ano tinitignan nila sa form para tatakan nila. Basta natatakan na - gora ka na sa next step.
    8. Ngayon, it's time to make pila. 4 na beses ka lang pipila. Kung sineswerte ka naman at walang tao, di ka na pipila. Unang pila - pilahan papuntang WindowA. Actually, nakaupo ka naman, so carry lang.
    9. Pangalawang pila - pila ng Window A. Kung wala namang nakapila sa Window A - swerte mo talaga. Sa Window A vineverify kung kamukha mo ung letrato mo at kung tama ung name na nilagay vs. your birth certificate. Pipirmahan lang nila ung form mo once done.
    10. This time, process to Window B. Pangatlong pila ulet. Di ko lam kung anong hinahanap nila sa Window B pero pipirmahan lang nila ung picture mo. Tapos!
    11. Fourth pila, ang pila papunta ng Gate 2. Exciting to kasi ung basketball court ay hindi aircon. This time, gate 2 is aircon na!
    12. Pagpasok mo ng Gate 2, your task is to present your verified application form sa mga counters. Kung first timer ka tulad ko, hanap ka lang ng shortest line na may nakalagay na "First Time" Application. Uuriratin nila lahat ng form mo especially ung mga madadaldal na nasa counters. Pero ako, ayos lang, gusto ko na ung may kausap kesa sa wala. At kung ako sayo, papaphotocopy ko na ang mga sumusunod para iwas sa hassle
      • NSO Birth Certificate, actually, they will get the original, but just to make sure, photocopy mo na ren. May service dun ng photocopy pero pag umuulan nga naman ng tao - pati dun may pila.
      • Lahat ng ID's na meron ka. Student ID, SSS, Company ID, kahit ano ipa photocopy mo, mabuti na ung handa.
      • Kung meron kang TOR or Transcript of Records, sama mo na ren yan
      • Baptismal Certificate. Kesyo panahon pa yan ni kopong kopong, pwede yan
      • NBI Clearance. cge lang, photocopy lang ng photocopy
      • SSS E1 kung wala ka pang ID
      • Income Tax Return (BIR Form 2316)
    13. Bago ka matapos sa second verification na ito, they'll ask you if you want a RUSH or REGULAR Passport. As of this date, prices are Php750.00 which you can claim in 2 days or Php500.00 for 6 working days.
    14. Lastly, Exit ka lang from Gate 2 and Welcome to Gate 3 - Cashier's Corner! :) Pila agad and pay the exact amount para iwas hassle.
    15. Weeeee, keep your receipt and be back when to claim your passport. Nakatatak sa receipt kung kelan mo pwedeng makuha passport mo. Sa same gate na ito mo din sya makukuha. So if you're claiming na - proceed to this gate na at once. :)
Saya ba? Yung mga wala pa dyan, kuha na!
PS: This time, pumasok na ko sa office. One day lang SL ko ha. :)

Jul 16, 2007

My Not So typical Monday

Since my long term plans of getting a passport wouldn't push through because I don't have a legit copy of my birth certificate yet, I decided to go to NSO today and process them. I went there past 7AM and in fairness there were just around 60 something people in line. I finished in about good past 8AM. I was supposed to claim my NSO copy around 9:30 AM but their server jammed. 10:30AM, Marvin and I headed to MOA na lang and decided to grab a quick bite before going back. Spike's Ice Cream is truly satisfying!

Finally, past lunch, I got my record na, and then we headed home.

I called in SICK and did not report to the office. :)
That's what I call, my not so typical "work" Monday.

Jul 14, 2007

Target Missed: Australia!

Here we go again, as of today I officially missed the Australia trip for the second time because I don't have a PASSPORT. Goodness gracious! But I don't feel as bad, haha. Ok lang. It'll come again (maybe years after, hahaha!), besides, the opportunity was not lost, someone else actually earned it. :)

I'll be kind enough to let it slip, haha. Come to think of it, I've always been a second option. :( The CEBU trip wasn't offered to me - or so they thought they did - but I know they didn't. And then this one again. And so of course don't shout in front of my anymore cause that's not needed - I've had enough lecture na with Marvin. The her we go again thingy and see? I told you talks :p

I got a nice Koala pen accessory from Marc, that Marvin wanted so I gave it to him anyway.

And so of course, you would know the bottomline of this blog entry - yep, I have to process my Passport asap so Monday - off to waiting in line I go. Shit, I know I'll be hating this episode, but what the heck - I guess I have no choice, I really have to do this one way or another.

Jul 13, 2007


Nope, I'm not exactly 'busy' or anything. I was just tamad in updating my blog.. so sorry! This has been a lousy week for me. If not for my 2-hour Call Center Fundamentals Training every start of the shift, I could have been crazy trying to kill time - imagine, 9hours in the office - gosh. Office has not been so good lately, I'm not really sure what's happening to me or to the world; I always feel the restlessness, jitters and all. I want to work hard but it seems there's nothing to do. I want to move and be busy and all but how come I'm not doing anything challenging? Cmon, I need something to work at. :(

Okay, enough of the work sentiments.

It's Gio's birthday tomorrow.. Gio is Marvin's ka-paxion... so to you Gio, Happy Birthday ulet.

I'm looking forward for this weekend, I don't know what to do but I could be a bum again!

And oh, btw, I bought a cute pair of CELINE shoes. They went on SALE but because I wasn't able to find any at MOA, I decided to go with Kae at SM last week. I kinda don't like it in a way because I feel so AEGIS - yep, shoes is more than 4inches but it's a wedge actually - more like a platforms shoes! Oh well, its just cheap, I bought it anyway - "Heto ako oh, basang basa sa ulan, walang masisilungan...walang malalapitan..." nyahahaha

Happy Weekend everyone!

Jul 11, 2007

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#18 - TeleTech

Jul 8, 2007

I Know I'm Not Alone (... money!)


I've always tried to control myself spending and all. And in all fairness naman I believe I'm doing great, it's just that sometimes, some money wasting events happen... hay,

I went out today with my sister to shop for shoes. My shoes was a bit affordable coz it was on Sale, but my oh my, shopping went out of hand on the last store you can ever think of - hay naku talaga. Ang mahal na ng bilihin I swear! And I was talking to my sister when we were waiting for our take home food. She was laughing and showed me the bottom part of our receipt.. here's how it goes


Talaga Naman!
Feels good when I think that I know I'm not the only one like this...
harharharhar :p

Jul 6, 2007

HP Fever

Maybe some time in the 'far future', I get to read the book of the famous Harry Potter. Sayang I wasn't able to do it when all was still so hot but I do believe it's a good book and a good read. :)

Don't fail to watch the movie!

Here's what I have, all from YAHOO! Movies

LONDON (Reuters) - Best-selling author J.K. Rowling revealed how she broke down in tears during the completion of her final book in the Harry Potter series.

She also tells interviewer Jonathan Ross how she changed the last word in "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" at the eleventh hour.

"When I finished one chapter near the end I absolutely howled," she told the BBC television presenter.

She finished the book alone in a hotel room.

"I was sobbing my heart out -- I downed half a bottle of champagne from the mini bar in one and went home with mascara all over my face. That was really tough."

The Deathly Hallows is the seventh and final book about the schoolboy wizard Harry Potter and his Hogwarts friends.

The plots have taken a darker turn and Rowling has in the past revealed that she would kill off at least two of the main characters.

When asked by the chat show host whether the word "scar" was still the last word in the book, as had been reported, she said: "Scar? It was for ages, and now it's not.

"Scar is quite near the end, but it's not the last word."

Harry Potter has a lightning bolt scar on his forehead as a result of a failed curse by the wicked wizard Lord Voldemort.

Rowling also revealed that the character Harry Potter was "totally imaginary" and not based on anyone.

His red-haired pal Ron Weasley was a lot like her oldest friend Sean though, she confessed.

More than 325 million copies of the first six books have been sold worldwide, helping to turn Rowling into the first dollar-billionaire author.

An all-British cast seemed to be a point of pride for her as she admitted it had been a "hell of an achievement."

Stars who have appeared in the five films, including the latest "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix," include Maggie Smith, Robbie Coltrane, Julie Walters, Richard Harris, Imelda Staunton, Alan Rickman and Ralph Fiennes.

The film had its premiere in London this week.

The Deathly Hallows appears on the bookshelves on July 21, but 1.6 million copies have been pre-ordered online.

British author of the Harry Potter series of books, JK Rowling poses for the photographers as she arrives with her husband Neil Murray for the premiere of the latest Harry Potter film, 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix', at a cinema in central London, Tuesday July 3, 2007. (AP Photo/Lefteris Pitarakis)

Actress Emma Watson arrives at the European Premiere of her new film 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' at a cinema in London, Tuesday July 3, 2007. .(AP Photo/Anthony Harvey)

Actor Daniel Radcliffe arrives at the European Premiere of his new film 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' at a cinema in London, Tuesday July 3, 2007. (AP Photo/Anthony Harvey)

British actor Daniel Radcliffe walks by Japanese fans before the premiere of his new film "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" in Tokyo, June 2007. The film's much-anticipated official world premiere will take place in London and author J. K. Rowling was to lead the cast down the red carpet.(AFP/File/Toru Yamanaka)

Jul 5, 2007

Resignation Blues...

Three years ago, I graduated from College. I was one of those many aspiring fresh grads submitting resumes wherever, being interviewed just about anywhere. I can remember one call center called up; the interviewer made me recite A-Z and 1-20, I was sitting on the stairs while holding my phone talking in 'carabao english' - wehehehe, hindi naman mashado - medyo marunong na ko ng mga panahong yon...

I had a job, not on the that company I was talking about but a different one. Exactly One year and two months, I ended up taking calls. I was promoted. A better position as how I'd like to put it. There were back to back 'to-do' lists, long Performance Reviews and Classes even in holidays. But before I achieved where I am right now, I was kicking ass. I was just an intern back then so I have to prove I'm worthy of the promotion. Three painstaking months, my Sup finally signed my papers and then it was an official promotion - I'm now Certified Trainer with 'Organizational Announcement' sent to everyone.

Now, it has been exactly 1 year and 2 months again; I'm still holding the position I had before. This time, pay is a couple of thousands higher, respect is way lot better, title becomes 'tenured' as opposed to intern, mentoring whoever gets the 'intern' title as opposed to being mentored during the early days. I even took home the Best Trainer Award during the recently concluded Roxas Pride Awards. (best trainer daw!)

Honestly speaking, it has been more than 10 times that I thought of resigning, yep - the resignation blues I always feel whenever I feel like I should get out of my Company na and venture out. Why I still stay? I don't know, reasons are a mix of stability, growth and experience.

Many of my friends have moved on, I even think almost all of them. Still... here I am. And the resignation blues is again resurfacing. Maybe it's telling me that I'll be reaching my second year anniversary on my current post. And maturity should just be 2years; we all should move up. I therefore conclude it's time to move up - if not, then out. I'm waiting, my bosses - hihi, clock's ticking...

No regrets. Being with TT made me someone else; better. It has been a whole lot of experience more than words - not all good, not always bad. There were life's hard earned lessons, laughter and tears (no kidding, believe me). And wherever this resignation thingy leads me - I'll make sure to let you know.

Have a Nice One Today... Everyday!
God is Good, All the Time

Jul 4, 2007


Happy4th of July Everyone! - oh, I mean, this goes to all our friends from the States.

Today is July 4 and I don't have work tonight because I'll be running another 2-day class; Select Migration Training. And I'll be reporting for work at 4PM to 1AM.

Today I was able to know Marvin's friends.
Meet the paksyonista's:

Zandro - ang mahilig umu*** pero kasangga talaga ni Marvin
Makoy - the mukhang serious pero makulit na buddy nila. Uhmmm, the highest paid TL daw in Lipa, hahaha

Tomzer - ang longhaired na taga YSTILO :) and super kwelang hindi naman kalbo. :p

Carlo - the Trainer who wants to transfer to Cebu

AJ - the quiet type birthday boy. Happy Birthday!

Cyrus - ehem, Gio's buddy?

Taylor - the gorgeous TL in Lipa

OM Tin - their cool OM

Gio - the active paksyonista who's missing in action kahapon

Marvin - my labaduds

When I arrived home, I witnessed the most silent night in our home ever. :(

Jul 2, 2007

Personality Tests

I was really bored at home so I was just surfing, and editing some HTML codes of this blog. I was looking for a personality test and this is what I found:

LOVE TEST - http://www.lovetest.com/loveteststart.html

LoveTest Questionnaire Analysis:

marvin musñgi is your perfect soulmate, mae ruth velasco!

There are always ups and downs in every relationship. Although you think you know a lot about your partner already, you might want to spend some more quality time together. Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty are very important factors for a successful relationship. Think about what's still missing in your relationship and how you could improve it. This result is based on the answers which you selected in the Love Test Questionnaire.

Numerology Analysis:

mae ruth velasco is 44 percent compatible with marvin musñgi
marvin musñgi is 36 percent compatible with mae ruth velasco

These percentages is based on the names which you entered at the beginning of the LoveTest. To get the most accurate results, you should always provide the first, middle and last name. You can also take the LoveThermometer for a more indepth analysis of various aspects of your relationship.

Astrological Compatibility Analysis

Taurus (Earth Sign)

(21 April - 21 May)

The sign of the bull. Taureans are typically headstrong but very loyal with it. They do tend to dwell on wealth and social status, their own and other peoples. With a constant battle to keep up with the Jones. Although whatever a Taurean wants to achieve, they will strive for until they get it.
More info...

TAURUS & PISCES: This combination can work, however the Fish lack practicality which can be a deterrent for you. On the other hand your Pisces mate may leave if you become too domineering.

Pisces (Water Sign)

(20 February - 20 March)

The sign of the fish. Pisceans are fairly free-flowing people in the space that they are allowed to flow in.They often feel trapped when they are not able to do the things that they want, or when things don't run smoothly and this makes them irritable. However, a piscean can make the best of a bad situation if they really want to and blend in with their surroundings.
More info...

PISCES & TAURUS: This is not a bad connection, however the Bull can get upset with your impractical nature. You, on the other hand, may find that the Bull is too stubborn.

I'm funny noh? hehe - la magawa eh.

Jul 1, 2007

A Different Britney, A Different Saturday

Marvin and I used to see each other every weekend. It's his time of the week to go home from a week stay at Lipa. This Saturday we.. I mean I decided not to see him for a while. Things had been a little shaky this days. Instead of going home, he decided to stay in his apartment there and bum around.

Saturday, June 30, I accompanied my sister to the hospital to have her ears checked. After about an hour, we went malling. It's been a while - hehe. It feels nice to spend quality time with family. While we were strolling - well I was actually looking for a new copy of Cosmo - we stopped in this magazine stand and saw OK's new magazine having Britney in their cover. I like how she looks like in this photo. Despite a lot of people commenting against her and disliking her, I think she still deserves a second chance. She just needs a little control and guidance. Aw, what the heck... this is just my opinion.

Taken from her official site

Dear Fans,

I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.

It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here.

Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.

This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.

I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.”

I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.

I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy. I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her.

Love, Britney

Quote of the month…
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.

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