I See Blur

Bad Day lyrics

Where is the moment when needed the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
you tell me your blue sky's fade to grey
you tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day
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It''s Monday morning. My body clock has stayed the same, i'm up when I feel like its time for work, even if it's weekend. Anyway, I'll probably be hitting the sheets in few hours from now. And I wish to sleep for 10 to 12 hours. Sarap!

Anyway, I decided to blog because I am supposed to be up and doing something work related - that is one of the main reasons why i bring my laptop home - to be able to do work related stuff.

I am currently working on Confirming Resolution presenatation and Gaining Confidence but I couldn't find any material. I'm having a hard time writing from scratch. I found few articles from the internet but of course, admit it - it's not tailor fit for what i exactly needed. so i am still browsing, still trying to look for articles that will complete my presentation.

I am still financially unstable - haaaaaaaaay. i just checked my accounts online - whew, buti na lang pasok pa din sa budget.

I look at myself, my financial status, my stand in the office - my position. what am i now? I am still far from the things i envisioned when i was still studying - college that is. i am currently being paid in the office merely for learning - i don't know if this has been the longest time - but i have not taught a single class for the past months - its driving me crazy not being able to do the only thing i know

and oh - before i forget, our first month will come this 31st - 1 month na ko - kami ng mga kasama ko who boarded the company last March 31

I want to do so many things in my life but I don't know where to start. I wanted to buy us a house but how? I am the only one who's capable of paying bills yet. I don't doubt my parents can provide us - but i know, its not that much. If we get a house, most likely I'll pay for it - but it has to be in manila - near here or near divi where my parents work. so calculating the bills every month - house, electricity, phone, water, grocery = roughly 12 to 18K per month. with my salary - i couldn't yet, i have cards to pay too, then my baon until the next payday - and hell, talk about savings. Why am i being open about this? ehehe - wala namang nagbabasa nito eh - keri lang. i just wanted to vent out. I wish I'm earning like 60K nga noh. malabo pa, malabo pa ang hinaharap ko.

Sana manalo sila mama and papa sa lotto. :p

Ika nga sa mga nakasabit sa jeep - "In God we Trust" I do. Hope's all up.

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Ahay, i slept like 4AM, and woke up past 8:30AM. Didn't meet my 10-12 hour sleep. Decided to update na lang ulet my blog. :p
After three weeks of having no mani/pedi, finally - our service was here yesterday. Ehehe, meet my classic white brazil havs. :)

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I was watching WWE backlash 2008 few hours ago. Hindi nio na itatanong, avid fan din ako ng wrestling - as in. Anyway, i didn't know that Orton has the belt na - which he got from Cena. Yung napanood ko was a 4 man no DQ/ no count out match. The Game vs. JBL vs. Cena vs. the current champ - Randy Orton. Cena eliminated JBL, right there and then after the count, Orton eliminated Cena - OMG... the ending was - Triple H vs. Randy Orton. You should all see how D Game countered all the attempts of Orton, hahaha. And the winner is.....

OMG, and i just realized now.. JACK TV tagged the TV show kanina as LIVe - i thought it wasn't - it was indeed LIVE - OMG.

pictures courtesy of WWE.COM

Period of Consequences

I watched HBO early this morning. I think everyone else has seen this movie before I did. It has aired many times before I saw it earlier - I'm glad I had the chance.

An Inconvenient Truth

Featuring Al Gore and his stand on Global Warming. Its really undeniable, we are facing some serious damages and consequences because of what we have been doing to mother earth. Who says there's no future? There's always future with everything. I was moved by Gore's topic that we can't do anything to stop and lessen Global Warming. Remember Ozone Layer? - that it's getting thinner and thinner - and so we banned spray nets and those gases that ref produce. The entire world just has to be educated. Innocence is not an excuse.

The movie wasn't boring at all just like others are claiming to it to be.

I just couldn't blog so much regarding this topic - there's nothing else to tell, we all experience it, we all feel the heat, we were all struck how hurricane katrina took so many lives, we all starting to feel the consequences --- nothing really more to tell.

This is the only planet we have. Think twice before you do something bad. If you're doing something good - encourage others to try and do it too.

please visit www.climatecrises.net and be educated

sudden distress

two afternoons ago i woke up with an unusual pain. err - i didn't even sleep well; actually. i was always being awakened by (1)-the heat of the summer, (2)-the super pain on my shoulders. i tried sleeping with two pillows, i tried sleeping with no pillows at all, i tried sleeping the normal way - laying on my back -- but to no avail - even tried not to sleep at all hoping the pain will just go away. an hour and a half before my usual wake up call - i was already awake. huhu. got stipnek . i don't know if saying "i have stiff neck" is proper - although pwede din. i feel lang that the phrase, my neck is stiff is more appropriate - anyway - wala akong pakelam, basta masakit leeg ko. i wanted to cry - as in. i couldn't comb my long hair, i could bend my neck to wear undies - ganun sya kasakit when i try to move. when i was eating my breakfast after i woke up, i was trying to be very careful - my shoulder/neck muscles tend to twitch whenever i move a muscle that's connected to it. nakakaloka ang sakit. i saw an OMEGA pain killer. i plunged my finger in the bottle and generously applied it on the affected area. i don't know if it was the right move - ang hapdi - LOL - i felt like my skin was being burned.



now, two days after - i feel a whole lot better. i realized now that the stiff neck that i had wasn't stiff neck at all - blame my analysis for that matter. i believe its purely my neck/shoulder joint that started it all. And that caused me having a stiffed neck - maybe the muscles were super sore or me naipit na ugat kaya ganun. Well anyway, i'm still having a hard time looking at my right or left - LOL - pero konti na lang. not so much pain like before. i'm happy that i'm getting better.

Lips of an Angel

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

one of his favorite songs

Why Complications

Why are there a lot complications in this world? sigh
Why can't we all live simply?
I hate being complicated, I hate being in a complicated relationship, I pretty much don't like complications at all in any aspects of it - don't we (all)?

On the other side of the news, I just got a phone/plan provided by my company. I call the phone "chakka" ahahhaa - pero ok lang. I don't worry so much about it anymore

I'm now a bit comfortable with my position and work in the new company I'm in. I've found few good friends that I hang out with. Eyes are getting a little observant in the office so maybe careful planning and implementation of certain things will really help me - us, to get in the groove of working.

I'll backtrack some post if I have spare time

Plan for today:
- malling
- visit to salon

gosh - super haba na ng buhok ko - I swear. :)

Lost - Edited: Lost and Recovering

Yes, I'm a bit lost for words - I don't know how to write my update - lam ko na, i bullets ko na lang - sorry, taong tamad.

coping up with work, but I feel kulang pa din ako sa effort.

I've been reporting 6 days for 2 weeks now. Waaaaaaaah, i need a good time rest.

We had our usual family swimming last Saturday and Sunday. And since have work last friday, Saturday morning na ko umuwi. Of course, I'm excited and all that so in short - no sleep ako from the time I got home from office, until we get to Laiya, San Juan Batangas at 4PM!!. EARLY sunday morning, from Batangas, I commuted for 4 hours just to go back to Manila and attend an 8 hour training. Imagine my eyebags that time - huwah. Nakakahiya ako. huhu.

I'm tired and exhausted until now.

I want to update you more pero tinatamad talaga ko. sakit ng katawan ko.

Promise, update kita some other time.

PS - i want a shopping spree badly (so I can go back to normal, hahahahahaha)

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ang chaka ko talaga. hahahhaa. Guess what? I'm feeling better right now? hmmmm - wanna guess what made me felt better - hahaha, three shirts and a sandals and a take out at KFC all alone! Yes, just me. Hahahha, I was really confused as to where to go after I paid my bills - so I don't have any choice but to go to the mall. Eh nakakahiya naman kung pupunta ko ng hindi ako bibili db - so yun. I went home contented and happy. ;p

Gigantic

A lot of things happened today. I'm just gonna tell the crazy and gigantic ones - :p

Well, we had a Town Hall Meeting today at the office where our Director explained a lot of changes in the company, progress, challenges, numbers and all that. I was even asked to stand to maybe emphasize my presence. Gigantic pressure.

After the meeting, the Director ordered food as a treat to everyone. he ordered PIZZA - a gigantic one. I've seen one like this back in the old company i was with - i took a pic syempre, di bawal cell sa floor eh, hahaha. Gigantic Pizza.

Anxiety

It's 3:59AM - Sunday morning.

I had a shift earlier even though it's a Saturday. Actually, it's not a shift at all because I didn't stay at the office for the usual 9 hours. I had a short training earlier about Unix for 2 hours - though I felt 2hours wasn't enough. Anyway, I can't sleep - that's why I'm blogging. Maybe because I'm supposed to sleep later pa.

I'm a bit worried with my upcoming deliverables and all the expectations in the current office I'm at. Hmmmm, mali kaya napasukan ko. Hahaha, hindi naman siguro. It's just that, wala kasi akong ka-brainstorm :p, wala akong mashadong kausap on how to go about things - well, mas mabuti na din to, at least I can do what I want. And in fairness, my new found friends naman are helping me - sila kim and ed. In ways na, they're making me feel I'm not alone in learning new stuff. hehe.

Ah well, I can only blog and say as much pero iba paren talaga pag andun ka and trying to learn. Huwaw, wag lang sana ako magfail. I want to bring out the best in me in every situation pero alam ko din that there will be bumpy roads as I go along and yun yung kinakatakot ko. I don't know. Basta alam ko, God will guide us. Always.

It's 4:06AM - still awake, baka hindi na nga ako matulog eh - later na.

P.S.
This is how my friend felt din when he moved out of teletech and joined another company. Medyo siguro pressured din sya and all - normal kaya ang anxiety?

Aja~

EDIT:
I had to edit this post to add some more :)
I attended the 6PM mass today and went to the mall with kae after. I got an optical mouse for my laptop - hirap kasi pag nasanay ka na sa mouse - ala desktop. :)

Surviving

I'll add some photos soon. :)

For now, eto muna.

Haaaaaaaay, like I keep telling everyone I know, NOSEBLEED is an understatement. Super tong pinasukan kong company - haha, or baka nasanay lang siguro ako sa medyo magaang na trabaho. Anyway, naalala ko tuloy ung work ko sa teletech - walang wala sa ginagawa now ng mga analysts sa GXS - or maybe naguumpisa pa lang siguro ako kaya ganito. Oh well, i'm surviving so I'm still contented.

It's my fourth day today and I'm starting to get busy as my managers are giving me tasks as the day passes.

On the other hand, I kinda' feel like RCBC Plaza is an amazing building. May 7-11 sa loob ng building, may mga 24 hour establishments where you can buy food anytime! La lang, haha - just sharing. O sya, inuwi ko tong laptop ko so my sister can use it too for few browsing indulgements. hahaha, and of course some business related stuff. :)

O - holiday sa monday people :p